Recently I heard some news that has been hard to take.
A friend whom I have known for many years has a mass on one of his kidneys. This friend has been through so much in the past few years . He is a prayer warrior and has prayed for many people around the world at various times. He is one of the few men that I know who loves God passionately and recklessly. His heart is barbaric at its very core and I love how he loves Jesus.
Since I heard this news, I have been praying and fasting as I ask God for a good report for him, after his recent scan.
During this time, I have been so thankful for the internet and to be able to access worship videos on youtube, in particular, Jesus Culture -Encounter 2012.
Jesus Culture and in particular Kim Walker , know how to take you into the throne room to see the very face of Jesus. I am so thankful to them and to God for their ministry.
There is so much power in HIS name... the name of JESUS. Just saying His name is all it takes to bring on his presence, his name causes darkness to tremble, His name drives all fear away, his name is Love ... He is our healer.. our Saviour , our friend, our brother, and yet He is God. My mind can't contain it.. my heart is overwhelmed by Him and His love for me.
There is noone I could run to but him. The bible says "He is my ever present help in times of trouble". I know this so well... He has been my help throughout the years, and I love him so much.
I have learnt in this life that nothing is forever.. relationships come and go , children grow up and move away, nothing is forever except for the love of my Saviour. His love will continue into the other side of Eternity. It is this love that my heart longs for . He woos me with an everlasting love and melts my heart as I spend time with him. He searches the deep recesses of my heart and draws out what is not of him and upholds me as he asks me for it.
How can I not, live for Him?
How can I not, give him everything?
How can I not, fall on my knees in worship before him for all that he has done?
The blessings that he has given me in this life have come out of much heartache.
He requires nothing else but ALL of me and how can I not, but give him all of me?
There is no one in this world who can satisy like Jesus can... He fills my heart and soul and renews my spirit. I love spending time in His presence.. its where he truly reveals who he is.
There is a cloud before me, thick with his presence. I walk in... into the warm healing light. I walk in, hand in hand with my friend into this cloud full of the presence of God and thick with His LOVE.
We are not afraid.. There is a healing in the light of his presence...I hold up my friend to Him , high into the light of His presence. The healing power of Jesus permeates every fibre , every cell every part of my friends being. He is lifted up and transformed before me ... the light of God , the healing power, lifts him off the ground..slowly turns him around in mid air as Gods power touches every part of him. This renewing, redemptive,glorious healing power of the one who spoke this universe and our world into existence redeeming every part of my friend before my own eyes. As he is released.. he lays there.. motionless.... with tears in my eyes I walk forward and touch him.
As he opens his eyes we both look up.... and it is then that we see the face that we have both longed to see for so long, the face of Jesus.. the same face that told me in a dream many years ago to "follow Him"... that beautiful face .. those beautiful eyes.. that beautiful mouth that speaks to us.You are so loved... I have longed for you to see me face to face for us to look into each others eyes and for me to be able to permeate your souls and spirits with my love for you. What you have seen is just a glimpse of my love and glory... there are some things that I have to hold back until that day you are with me forever.. but know this.. I am with you.. there will never be a time when you are alone.
Know I lead you onto the path that I have purposed for your life, keep seeking me each day for your daily bread , your provision each day. Keep drinking ... drinking my fresh living water.. for without it you will perish. Sit with me , give me time to show you the wonderful and marvelous things that I have planned for your life and for the work that I would have you do on earth.
Know that I will be returning soon... it won't be long now .. only My Father knows the time but I sense it wil be near.. there are still many who do not know my love for them... be my hands and feet to them.. my arms and my voice to the nations who have become numb to me.
They have forgotten all that I have done for them. Don't despise small beginnings,teach my love to your children, each one can multiply my love into this dying world 100 fold. I have called you for such a time as this.. separate yourself from the things of this world and from the things of the flesh.. renew your spirit by reading my words for you, love unconditionally , even the ones who despise or ignore me for it is by your love for them that they will come to know me.
Glorify me in the little things and I will be exalted and glorified when the big things arise.
A watching world depends on you ... rise and be healed in Jesus name.. by my stripes you are HEALED. Go in peace and love , remind each other and the world of my love."
He takes my friends hand and helps him to his feet .. and hugs him . It is an embrace that makes my friend inhale deeply, inhaling a fresh infilling of the Holy Spirit , inhaling the Spirit of Jesus, inhaling the Spirit of the living God. He wipes the tears from my eyes and kisses my hand ... fresh tears fall on to his hands and I kiss them away as he embraces me. This gentle lover of my soul, my redeemer , my Saviour whom I love with every fibre of my heart and soul. We stand in His presence for a time, unable to move, not wanting to move.. wanting this moment to last forever, not wanting to leave this cloud , not wanting to leave Him.
The cloud begins to lift and slowly starts to dissipate.
We stand in the same place , amazed and changed forever at what we have just seen.
Still feeling his hands on us we look at each other .. our faces are different, illuminated, full of His countenance.. full of joy and love.
We are filled with a new passion, a new depth of love for a dying world ..refreshed and rejuvenated to continue the race ..... show us where to continue Lord.. direct us and lead us as you promised.
We love you so much.
